I realize that I’m happiest when I am creating things or making things. When I am knee-deep in learning or producing things that others can enjoy that I am in my euphoria.
Recently, I jumpstarted this blog for the sake of creating something… anything. Prior to this, I’ve been stagnant for a few years now. If you really look back at my Milestone Rides bicycle travel blog, you’ll notice all the content production stopped at the end of 2019, right before the start of the Covid-19 Pandemic.
I can easily assign all responsibilities to this once-in-a-lifetime event for the lack of creation but I have to be honest and tell you that I was burning out at the end of that year. I was done capturing minutia of every day traveling and living on the road. I wanted to just live and enjoy it. So when 2021 came, I decided I was just going to focus on consuming the experience.
That was great and all but eventually when all the traveling needed to stop in 2022, I became depressed. I had nothing to consume except for looking at social media and wished that I can be out on the road again.
It was unhealthy. I just kept digging myself deeper and deeper into despair. Until just about a few days ago when I decided I needed to start creating again.
I needed to be the one making content. Maybe not as diligent as I once did between 2013 – 2019 but I needed to start somewhere. So this simple but yet monumental attempt is my opportunity to create something which may help me jumpstart to other things or maybe it’ll just stay the way it is; a simple snap shot of my thoughts on a daily basis.
To be honest with you, I’ve never really done a consistent daily blog before. I was too concerned of what others think of my writing or I had nothing important to say. This time around, I’m just going to let myself ramble and cover all the topics that interests me. I’m not sure how long this will last and I don’t really care. It’ll last as long as I want it to. It’ll serve as a way to document this strange mid-life I am going through at the moment.
Do you share this dichotomy of creating versus consuming? Let me know in the comments below. Maybe there are others out there that’s feeling the same. What have you created today?
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